Sep. 25th, 2015

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VERY FEW PEOPLE MAKE IT THROUGH “INITIATION”. ESPECIALLY NEUROTYPICALS, CIS HET, OR WHITE PASSING FOLK WHO DON’T HOLD THEMSELVES ACCOUNTABLE OR TAKE OFFENSE WHEN I DO.

AT A CERTAIN POINT, MY SYMPTOMS, BEING “TOO” OUTSPOKEN, AND HAVING “EXTREME” VALUES OR OPINIONS, BECOME A DETERMINING FACTOR IN MAKING OR BREAKING A RELATIONSHIP - PLATONIC, ROMANTIC, OR FAMILIAL.

I’M SLOWLY BUT GRADUALLY LOSING TOLERANCE FOR PROBLEMATIC BEHAVIOR. YOU CAN BE A GOOD PERSON BUT THIS ISN’T SOMETHING I WILL COMPROMISE. I HAVE NO TIME FOR EVEN A HINT OF TRANSPHOBIA, HOMOPHOBIA, RAPE CULTURE, PEDOPHILIA, RACISM, SEXISM, MISOGYNOIR, XENOPHOBIA, COLORISM, FATPHOBIA, AGEISM, ISLAMOPHOBIA, OR ABLEISM BEING UNACCOUNTED FOR IN MY CYPHER.

ACTUALLY, I’VE NEVER HAD THE TOLERANCE. THE DIFFERENCE NOW IS I’M ENFORCING ACCOUNTABILITY BY CHALLENGING MY ANXIETY AND CONFRONTING ANYONE IN MY SPACE WHO MAKES LIGHT OF THE SHARED EXPERIENCES OF PEOPLE SUBJECTED TO ANY OF THE AFOREMENTIONED PREJUDICES. YOUR INABILITY TO FIND HUMOR OUTSIDE OF PEOPLE’S STRUGGLES IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL TBH, PRETTY UNORIGINAL, AND VERY UNIMPRESSIVE. THERE ARE EFFECTIVE COMEDIANS THAT GET PAID FOR THAT SHIT AND AREN’T OFFENSIVE, Y'KNOW?

IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE BY MY DEMANDING YOU MAKE ACCOMMODATIONS FOR DISADVANTAGED FOLK, IF ASKING YOU TO MAKE THE SAME EFFORT WE HAVE TO MAKE TO SURVIVE IN A WORLD/SOCIETY/SYSTEM TAILORED TO ADVANTAGE YOU, IF YOU FEEL YOU’RE DOING A GREAT SERVICE BY ADJUSTING YOUR BEHAVIOR TO BE LESS OFFENSIVE THEN YOU CAN KICK ROCKS.

I DON’T EVEN HAVE FRIENDS FROM ALL THE AFOREMENTIONED GROUPS, BUT IT MAKES ME SICK TO THINK THAT ANYONE I CALL A “FRIEND” WOULD UNAPOLOGETICALLY CONTINUE PROBLEMATIC BEHAVIOR AND CONTRIBUTE TO MAKING SPACES UNSAFE FOR ANYONE. IRONICALLY, THIS IS WHY ALL MY CLOSEST FRIENDS ARE LONG DISTANCE. I WOULDN’T SAY I’M SURROUNDED BY BAD PEOPLE, BUT IT’S SAFE TO SAY THE ENVIRONMENT IS CONDUCIVE TO THE CONTINUATION OF BAD BEHAVIOR. THIS ESPECIALLY APPLYING TO MENTAL HEALTH AND OTHER INVISIBLE ILLNESSES OR EXPERIENCES.
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MEN STOP THREATENING TO KILL YOUR DAUGHTERS BOYFRIENDS TO PROVE YOUR MASCULINITY AND SHOW THAT YOUR DAUGHTER IS YOUR PROPERTY 2K15
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Sometimes I forget I'm a real person.

This is such a weird thing concept, but just hear me out.

I just think its weird that I have a name? And People think of me when they hear it... And they have certain songs or foods or smells that make them think of me. And even though I know I am an ever-changing being, I am immortalized in someone's memory because of how they knew me.

People see me on the train and on the street and might think, "They looks interesting, I wonder what their life is about." People have crushes on me and miss me and think I'm fun or maybe an asshole.

IDK, I feel more like... just a brain than a person... And when I look in the mirror I kind of feel detached from my body. Like that can't be my face...

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